Sunday, June 26, 2011

life on the edge

26.06.11
reflections on the past few weeks from a little coffee shop over looking the main street in Ucluelet, BC:
i have taken a position working with children for the summer in this little town bordering the Pacific Rim National Park, and consequently, i have moved my life away from victoria for three months. "life on the edge" is the motto here, and it fits in so many ways.
i starting my morning with a 50 minute jog along the Wild Pacific Trail, a spectacular gravel path skirting some of the most beautiful coastline i have ever seen. i can't think of a better way to start my morning. i am hoping to improve my trail running while i'm here, and why shouldn't i when i have such a perfect training ground! the trails are wonderful, but my true love is the beach...Long Beach, to be exact. i've taken to running the beach in my vibrum five fingers or even just in bare feet. the run along the sand is surreal.you can dip into the ocean waves anytime you like and  the mist comes in off the water to catch in the trees beside you.
to complement my running, i have found a weight centre in ukee! this pleased me greatly, and although it is small, i find it has everything i need. i also want to check out the local kayaking here as well as the indoor rock climbing gym in tofino.
so far, life is good on the edge...


20.06.11
Your face is sunburnt.
like a tomato.
and your back aches between your shoulder blades.
your legs are stiff. and your arms.
your face hurts. were you really laughing for hours?
you have a nagging feeling to see the ocean again and you check the wave report online.
you sway slightly when you walk, as if you were still floating on water.
but despite all this, you feel like you could take on the world.

this, my friend, is a surfing hangover.


i spent several hours riding the surf last sunday and it was spectacular! not my surfing mind you, just the act of surfing! i have never tried a more exhausting and addictive sport. i have been surfing for years now, coming to long beach as a child, but i am still only a beginner with so much to learn! my friends and i had many rides, laughs, and wipe outs to share. i also explored the rainforest boardwalk and the bog boardwalk which were both extreme examples of our west coast environment. extremely different and extremely beautiful.



04.06.11

i sat listening to the waves and watching the surfers and skim boarders play. the surfers looked like little black seals bobbing and floating in the ocean until a lucky one caught a ride.

children played in the sand as my brother and i used to, so many years ago. i have not lost my love for this place though. it has been my paradise for as long as i can remember. a true west coast love affair.

i have found work a little challenging but my reward is to live in this spectacular place surrounded by the ocean and forest. today's beach day was a welcome reminder of what i have here.

today was a good day.

an insight into Iyengar Yoga

My life has been very hectic the last few weeks, so my entries have been next to none, and i sincerely apologize for that. I have more to come but for now I wanted to describe some of my experiences in a recent Iyengar yoga practice.

During the past few weeks, my understanding of yoga has broadened, from a more physical view into a more holistic view. My experiences in class have fostered this development. I have gained a basic understanding of the philosophy of yoga, practiced many of the basic poses, and learned how maintaining a regular yoga practice will benefit my health and likely, my career in the future. The beauty of yoga lies within the fact that there is something for everyone at every level of practice: a benefit, a challenge, and a release.

Although I knew of the spiritual side of yoga, I didn’t necessarily incorporate a spiritual or mental awareness into my past practice. As our current practice in class deepened and we were exposed to the philosophy of yoga I began to recognize yoga, not only for its physical benefits. I learned that yoga is an ancient art which promotes wellbeing of the body, mind, and soul. Yoga is not a religion, but more of a way of life, with a prolonged yoga practice eventually leading to a sense of peace, being at one with the environment, and a realization of his or her own potential (Iyengar, 2006). In addition, practicing yoga can deliver increased flexibility, improved stamina and strength, improved joint mobility, increased relation, and increased breathing awareness (Iyengar, 2006). I was also introduced to the eight limbs of yoga: Yama, Niyama, Asana, Pranayama, Pratyahara, Dharana, Dhyana, and Samadhi (Iyengar, 2006). In class we focused on learning the asanas, or poses, but we also based our practices around the five yamas, or the great universal commandments: ahimsa (non-violence), satya (truth), asteya (non-stealing), brahmacharya (self-control), aparigraha (unselfishness) (Iyengar, 2006). The niyamas or personal disciplines, also guided our practice: saucha (cleanliness), santosha (contentment), tapas (great effort), svadhyaya (self study), and ishvara pranidhana (faith) (Iyengar, 2006).

The physical benefits of yoga are the more obvious ones and as I continue working as a personal trainer explaining the benefits of increased flexibility, joint mobility, muscular strength, and stamina to my clients (and enjoying them myself) will be straightforward. It is some of the spiritual and mental benefits that I am excited about taking into my future professional identity. When I practice yoga, I am tested in so many ways. My body is challenged, but my mind also struggles with the desire to come out of an uncomfortable pose. I struggle with the desire to quit and to stop trying. I also struggle with the desire to judge myself when I am not performing as I wish and I struggle with keeping my mind open and peaceful. I feel if I can work on my mat to overcome some of these desires then I can apply those lessons to all aspects of my life and I will become a better athlete, leader, friend, and person. If my clients can learn about yoga with professional guidance and start to embrace the struggle they may feel during a forward bend, the elation of improving downward facing dog, or even the satisfaction of maintaining mountain pose as they are waiting for the bus, then I believe they will also take these lessons learned and benefits gained into their daily living.

With yoga, as it should be with many pursuits, it is not only the outcome that should be satisfying. Each practice gives back to its students whatever they are willing to put into it. There is so much room for improvement, achievement, and challenge at any level. I plan to continue my practice in some form for many years to come and I will encourage others to try incorporating yoga into their routine as well. A yoga teacher once told me “pay attention to how you deal with struggle on your mat because it directly relates to how you deal with struggle in daily living. Your mat is like a mini-cosom of your life” (personal communication, Moksha Yoga Victoria, 2010).



Analysis of a Pose

Asana: Utthita Trikoasana Sanskrit meaning: Extended triangle pose

Entering the Pose

Begin in Tadasana and then jump or step your feet apart until you have a base of approximately four feet. Raise your arms up to shoulder height with your palms facing the floor.

Feet, Legs

Rotate your right foot and leg 90 degrees to the right and turn your left foot in towards your body. Keep your legs active with the knee caps lifted and feet grounded. Both legs should remain straight. Make sure your left knee cap is facing frontwards and not turning inwards.

Pelvis

Your hips should be as square and level as possible, creating a neutral pelvis.

Trunk

Length the spine by drawing the tailbone down and stretching the torso up through the ribs, neck, and up through the crown of the head. Then bend your torso to the left, extending and bending at the hip crease.

Arms

Your arms should still be raised to shoulder height. Stretch your arms all the way from your shoulders to the finger tips. When you bend your torso, ensure your arms follow until your right palm is either on the floor, resting on your right shin, or resting on a prop. The left arm and hand should be extended up towards the ceiling.

Head, Neck

The head and neck should still be in line with the spine, but if it is comfortable for you, turn your head and look up towards your left hand.

Coming Out of the Pose

Push on the little toe side of your left foot as you swing your arms in a controlled manor back up to center. Straighten your feet and jump or step them together. Repeat the pose on the other side and return to Tadasana.

Use of Props

This pose can have several variations to the hand placements. In my photos I most often place my lower hand on my shin and my upper hand straight in the air. This seems to be the best balance between comfort and challenge for me at this point in my practice. Our textbook suggested the lower palm could rest on the floor, but it would also be possible to rest it on several foam or wooden blocks, giving the student as much height as necessary. Sometimes we have also bent our upper arm and placed our hand on our hip. I find this really helps to open the chest and ensures there is minimal forward twist of the torso.

Challenges and Weaknesses

As illustrated by the photos, I do have some challenges with this pose. The first two photos were taken at the end of the first week of class, when my knowledge of the pose and ability to perform it correctly had not been developed. It is easy to see that I am collapsing through my ribs on the side that I am leaning towards, instead of really bending at the hip crease as we were taught. It also appears I am leaning forward slightly, probably to help alleviate the intense stretch I feel in my hamstrings during this pose. I am also not confident in keeping my balance and posture enough to turn my head to look towards my upwards hand.

Changes

When analyzing the photos, I realized my improvements in this pose are significant. First of all, my torso is bending much more from the hip and I am maintaining a more correct alignment through my spine when compared to my previous photo. My arms and legs are also straighter and I have turned my head to look upwards. A wider stance may allow me to bend further in this pose and I would like to work on moving my foot inwards slightly because it looks like it is turned outwards. Over all I feel I have improved in this pose.

Strengths

I feel that my strengths in this pose come from the muscular strength and endurance I feel in my legs, my balance, and the flexibility in my shoulders. This allows me to feel strong and stable in this stance and sufficiently open my shoulders to fully extend my arm upwards.

Benefits of this Pose

Benefits of this pose include the relief of gastritis, indigestion, acidity, and flatulence. This pose also improves spinal flexibility, massages and tones the pelvic area, and strengthens the ankles. It also may alleviate backache, shoulder misalignment, menstrual discomfort, and neck sprains (Iyengar, 2006). As well as these benefits, I also feel a stretch in my hamstrings (as I do with nearly every pose!). Increased flexibility in my hamstrings and my spine will likely allow for an improved performance in my running. Strengthening my ankles and improving my balance will benefit my trail running and hiking, and working to open the shoulders will improve my kayaking stroke. This posture also works to bring a simple awareness to the alignment of my body which is beneficial to all my physical pursuits.





References


B.K.S. Iyengar (2006). Iyengar yoga for beginners. London: Dorling Kindersley.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

vancouver beach run


                                                  water.under.pose.up.accomplish.stretch.

a lesson learned.

so...i don't really know how to say this, but i didn't succeed on my 100 day challenge, round two.

i went to vancouver and got involved in some family stuff (excuses, excuses) and before i knew it there were two days during the week where i did not complete my MOVEment. i was a little surprised at myself. after all...this is my project, isn't it? if i couldn't complete the challenge again, am i still a capable leader? i like to think i am and even in this small failure (dare i use that loaded word?) there is a learning experience.

i talk a lot about goal setting and this experience proves an important aspect of setting goals. when i decided to complete the MOVEment X 100 days  challenge for the second time, i have to admit my heart wasn't completely in it. i was doing it partly because a friend asked if i wanted to and not because it was my goal at that moment. also, because i had done it before, i did not give the challenge enough thought or respect. i thought it would be easy the second time. but clearly, it wasn't. 100 days is a long time and as i proved, in order to accomplish a challenge (or goal) of that length and magnitude, one must be completely committed and the goal must be important to them. i'm not saying the goal wasn't important to me, but it wasn't my priority, like it was the first time. so, as with any goal, make it and truly claim it as your own. put your heart in to it, believe in it, gain support, and achieve it. for you.

so there you have it. lesson learned. i do have some other goals and challenges i am excited about, however.

the first of these is a new iyengar yoga practice. i am completing an intensive beginners course that runs four days a week for 1.5 hours a day, until june 1st. my goals for this include learning some of the sanskrit terms, increasing my flexibility, and increasing my knowledge and appreciation for the physical and spiritual side of yoga. i have dabbled in yoga for a few years now but this will be the longest i will have ever committed to a practice like this. i am looking forward to what this practice can add to my life and how it will complement my other activities.

Friday, May 6, 2011

TC10KM

01.05.11: day 25

may 1st, i ran the TC10km race with thousands of other people. i didn't really have any expectations for this race as i'm not really a 'speedy' type person. i figured i would just jog the route and if i could make it through in 01:10:00 or so, then i would be pleased, especially since the crowd was so big.

this year the race route was changed to a loop course, which allowed for more running space on the road and more spectator viewing points. the route was beautiful and showcased some of victoria's spectacular waterfront. the tc10km is one of victoria's largest events and it seems the entire city comes out to run and support its runners. it is truly a wonderful event to be a part of and i would highly encourage anyone to attempt it...with the appropriate training backing them up of course!

my race strategy changed when i began running with a colleague and she took off faster than i was accustomed to. i realized i had a challenge and an opportunity and i began to chase her...for the next two km! we weaved in and out of the crowd, her in the lead and me on her heels, until i lost her among the other racers. i continued alone in the sea of people, but never really feeling alone, thanks to the spectators on the side of the road cheering for all the runners. this made me really think about the value of spectators in any sport or event. in most cases, they are just as important as the participants! the spectators participate in their own way, and on a 10km race, i was sure thrilled to have them cheering me on! my favorite moment in the race would have to be when a spectator on the side of the road pointed directly at me and leaned towards his friend saying "now she looks too happy!". i must have been running along with a big smile on my face or something! his comment made me laugh. it wasn't all fun though. i did push myself to run a little faster than i was anticipating and i finished with a time of 00:57:13, which i was very proud of!

i'm already looking forward to next year and maybe even trying to go a little faster :)

what are you afraid of?

what really holds us back?
this is a topic i have explored before...but i need to get to the bottom of this. what is it?


i think it is FEAR.

fear   

–noun


1. a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.


2. a specific instance of or propensity for such a feeling: an abnormal fear of heights.


3. concern or anxiety; solicitude: a fear for someone's safety.


what are we all so afraid of?
i am afraid of failure. afraid of failing the people who have believed in me: my family, my friends, and my MOVEment supporters (yes, i am afraid of disappointing you,of not being who you wish i was, of failing you.) i am afraid of failing and making that critic inside my head say "i told you you couldn't do it".
 
i am afraid of not achieving, not succeeding, of trying too hard, of not trying hard enough, of not making a difference, of being too real, of being vulnerable, of not being real enough, and of actually being successful.
 
and i am sick of being afraid.
 
so what's your advice? what would you tell me?
i know what i would say to you.
you probably can't beat the fear, you just have to learn to work with it. stand up to it. yes, you might fail...but you should try anyway. why? because what would be the point if you didn't? if nobody failed, learned, got back up again, and just TRIED, what kind of lives would we have?
 
even as i write this, i have an idea brewing in my mind of a challenge i want to take on...a challenge i am afraid to tell people about yet because what if it's not possible for me? what if i fail? in many ways it is easier to not try, not venture outside my comfort zone, and not put myself in the path of failure. but then i might always have this thought:
 
what if...



25.04.11: day 19
30 min walk.
full body strength.

26.04.11: day 20
1 hr trail run around mt doug with my running coach and friend.

27.04.11: day 21
upper body strength workout.

28.04.11: day 22
am: 20 min waterfront jog.
pm: lower body strength.

29.04.11: day 23
37 min run.

30.04.11: day 24
upper body strength.

Friday, April 29, 2011

day 12-18

18.04.11: day 12
30 min walk. ok, too many days of just walking. i'll try and kick it up a little.

19.04.11: day 13
1.5 hour road run! (well, i think it was about that, but i don't know for sure because i accidentally deleted my time on my watch at about 1.25 hrs! arrgh!! many of my technology mishaps are due to user errors.) my ankles and feet ached a little, but my cardio felt strong. i wasn't jogging very fast though...but it was a long one!

20.04.11: day 14
full body strength workout at the Y.

21.04.11: day 15
early morning spin class at the Y. wow. this was a tough one. i don't really 'do' spin classes and i don't even cycle outdoors...so i found this extremely challenging. so challenging in fact that i practically just went and listened to the instructor's music and did what i could! i guess it was a good place to start...a good learning experience and a good new activity. i actually enjoyed the group atmosphere in this class and it definitely pushed me more than i would have pushed myself if i was riding alone. i think i would like to do another one and see if i can improve...

22.04.11: day 16
hiking in east sooke park with my family! what a fantastic day to explore this gem of a park. i actually wore my five finger shoes for the whole hike and my feet felt fantastic! i find i have a very different relationship with the ground when i wear them. with a regular shoe, especially a hiking boot, the sole is so stiff that i often just drop my foot down anywhere. with the five fingers, i am so conscious of placing my foot down and using the muscles in my foot, ankle, and entire leg to balance and support each step. i wiggle my toes and really grip the ground around me. i'm really enjoying the experience and i was impressed that i was able to wear them for so long!

23.04.11: day 17
walk 30 min

24.04.11: day 18
cardio training at the Y for 1.5 hrs. variety of machines.
i've been working on my rowing sprints and i am trying to come up with a reason why. will i ever race? probably not! but i am sprinting to see if i can push myself through the uncomfortable feeling. as i have said before, i am a slow, endurance type person...not a powerful, sprinter, and i find pushing myself through that type of task to be extremely challenging. so, i'm practicing! practicing pushing through the physical exhaustion in my legs, the ache in my back, and most difficult for me, the mental voice that says "you can quit anytime". it has been tough but i have gotten my 500 meter sprint time down to 00:01:54. and i am beat after that!! i'll let you know if i improve!